Tim

jamesplace87 @ 2003-05-13T23:13:00

2003-05-14T03:13:33Z

We just wanted to try it
Just to see what it would do
Now, we know, because I don't have you.
We were all partying and having a good time,
Now its destroyed my life.
Why God??? Why mine??
It took you and tore you apart.
Now the only pain I feel is deep
Deep in my heart.
You died in my arms,
I wish it were a lie,
But now you're gone
For that night we lost the fight.
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You twisted me inside out,
like a mop left out to dry,
You made me feel less,
than any other guy,
You gave me a permanent wound,
to never trust again,
Now I could never,
ever consider you a friend,
You twisted me inside out,
like an eroding branch near death,
You waited for my downfall
to take what I had left,
and yet you left me like this...

jamesplace87 @ 2003-04-06T22:55:00

2003-04-07T03:03:57Z

Well before i left for Cocoa Beach i emailed and called him and i still havent heard from him it just aggrivates me becuz i have no clue what happend to him. its like he dissapeared off the face of the earth. sigh i just wish i could find out or hear something oh well hopefully i will soon. this prolly didnt make any sense but i just felt like writing that down lol oh well nite every one

jamesplace87 @ 2003-04-06T22:40:00

2003-04-07T02:54:10Z

Well I just got home From Cocoa Beach it was along week tho fun yet sad...We got there and went to the beach I got Sun Burned lol and then got a Henna Tattoo it like lasts for a month so every one got one i figured i would get one too hehe. When we were down there we began to clear out the house...and we rented a trailer to take most of the stuff back but going thru all of the stuff...uhhh i hated it! i just wanted to cry so i left and went running i couldnt stand it guys walking thru Her house pricing it just the thought that ill never be able to go back there ill never see her again every thing running through my head again sigh oh well im dropping the subject i guess... Im sorry Derek that i havent really been here to comment on your journal ill try to catch up :-). i missed talking to you alot. I hope you doing ok and i hope craig's doing well. hmmm i dont know what to write bout so i guess ill stop for this subject...

My quiz

2003-03-29T21:28:29Z

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Timed entry.

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This might be inaccurate. im in a rush so yea and this is long as hell so sorry for mistakes that will prolly occur

x. How old are you? 15
x. How old are you mentally? I swing wildly between 5 and 18 (haha that was a one night 18 year old never again lol)
x. Describe yourself in 5 words: Overwhelmed, Emotional, Lonely, Loyal, Friendly.
x. What are your best qualities: I'm a sympathetic ear
x. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? Around 10 minutes to convince myself that it's worth getting out of bed. After that things usually progress swiftly.

SLEEP
x. Do you dream at night? Not particularly often, which is just as well.
x. Do you remember your dreams? Yes, and they're generally not very pleasant, tho there ocasionally are.
x. What time do you go to bed usually? theres no set time normally when i cant stay awake.
x. What time do you wake up normally? Depends which clock wakes me first, biological or alarm, normally about 600 on the weekdays.
x. What time do you wake up on weekends? unpredictalbe.
x. Do you find waking late nice or annoying? It depends on what I've missed as a result.
x. Do you sleep with one pillow or two? two.

SCHOOL
x. Do you like school? I'm not too sure. I don't like most of the subjects but the people in it are normally nice enough.
x. Why/why not? I'll choose 'why'but why not is in my vocabulary.
x. What's your favorite subject? Television Prodcution/ Digital Arts special F/X
x. Most hated subject? science is not looked greatly upon by myself tho it can be interesting very seldomly.
x. Do you have a favorite teacher? Between Mark Roberts and Fran Price mrs price is my art teacher she is too cool
x. Ever had a crush on a teacher? ha ha sure why not they were hot
x. Are you a maths/science person or an english/drama person? English and drama. I have a way with words, now and then?

FRIENDS
x. Do you have heaps of friends? I do, and they're so much more than I ever hoped for.I love all of my friends I value each of them more than they could ever know.
x. Do you have a best friend? I don't believe in the concept of a best friend but I do have a sort of 'inner circle'. I'll tell them more than most people.
x. Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends? uhh its the same.
x. Do you ever get annoyed at any friend? once and a while and im sorry when i do.
x. Have you ever lied to a friend? I have, but they're generally lies to save them from hurt.
x. Have you ever stolen a friends boyfriend/girlfriend? Nooooo, I don't believe that's happened.

FAMILY
x. Do you like your parents? I value them more than they'll ever know.
x. Ever run away from home? No i have left but not ran away.
x. Ever thought about it? of course.
x. Do you have any siblings? Yep a sister, and a cousin who is like the brother i never had.
x. If so, do you like or get annoyed with them? Do i ever! lol
x. How old are they? sister is 11 and cousin is 23?
x. Do you feel your parents spoil you? They give me far more than I deserve and usually more than they can afford. It makes me feel terrible but when I'm in a position to pay back the favours, you can bet I will. With interest.
x. Do you not get along with any of your family? I have some family that would never if i fell off the face of the earth Then again, I gave up on them a long time ago.
x. Do you have big family get togethers ever? sometimes they always turn to fights tho :(
SEX
x. Ever had sex? yes
x. Believe that a person shouldn't have sex before marriage? thats there decision.
x. Believe in casual sex? thats there decision.
x. When do you plan/when did you lose your virginity? A hot summer day
x. Regret it? What? Regret not having it? I fully regret it everyday but hey it wasnt my choice in a way anyways sigh
RELIGION
x. Do you have a religion? I am catholic tho i attend a christian church weird yes i know.
x. Do you practice it i.e go to church? i go once and a while not often anymore.
x. Do you believe in God? YES
x. Satan? Do good and you get sent up to the Big Guy. You get to eat really good food for the rest of time. Do bad and you get sent downstairs and have burning coals shoved up your tailhole. If there truly is a hell then I've probably now secured my place in it. sadly well maybe not i dunno
x. Heaven? Hope so.
x. Hell? We're already there.
x. Does death scare you? Not particularly. It's probably the only constant in life. There are days when I feel I'd welcome it but then there are other days when I feverishly wish to live forever. Life is like that, I guess.

MORALS
x. Have you ever been drunk? Too many, I fear. I don't like being drunk. The loss of control scares me.
x. Stolen? No. I don't do things like that.
x. Shoplifted?
x. Tried to commit suicide? No i would never do such a thing it would be too rude to everyone else who knows me or i atleast think it would be? My uncle commited suicide and it hurt me soo bad i proised my self i would never do such a horrible thing.
x. Lied to a boyfriend or girlfriend? ummmm.
x. Gotten into a fight? sadly yes
x. Are you more innocent or guilty? That's entirely dependant on the subject.
x. Would you date a drug addict? proabably not
x. Have you ever had to look after someone who was a drug addict? No. Not yet but I'm still young.
x. Are you racist? No.
x. Have you been a hypocrite in the past? Everyone does it. They try not to but it's human nature.
x. Do you have an open or closed mind to other peoples beliefs and feelings? Absolutely open. As long as your beliefs don't infringe on others or cause injury/hurt to people then I'm extremely cool with it.

MEDIA
x. Do you watch tons of tv? Hardly any. Besides, it's all war updates nowadays.
x. How many times have you been to the movies in the past 6 months? lol like 10 atleast
x. Do you read magazines? Rarely.
x. Are you a couch potato? I wouldn't say so.
x. Do you use the internet too much? I sure do! Theres just so many interesting people to talk to.

MUSIC
x. Whats your favourite style of music? the question is what type of music dont i like and that would be. nothing i like everything i like rave techno trance rock pop rap
x. Do you play an instrument? I try to play the piano which im very good at if i do say so myself ive played guitar trumpet trombone drums.
x. Do you sing? I sing all the time and probably very badly.
x. Whats your favourite bands? Too many to list.
x. Why? Why not?
x. Name 3 CDs that you've bought in the last year: uhh i download my music

LOOKS
x. Are you happy with the way you look? uhh somedays somedays not
x. What would you change? I'm not going to bore you by listing everything..
x. Do you have a large wardrobe? Yes, im told i do but i never seem to have enough clothes.

OTHER
x. How do you feel right now? Tired, stressed and ready to collapse and excited and happy lol strange huh?.
x. What are you going to do after this? get off my ass .
x. Tomorrow? pack my bags for the beach which i should be doing now becuz ill prolly forget later.... Like I care?
x. Anything special/exciting coming up? uhh this july im going to maryland and ohio again and this weekend im going to are beach house and this june a great freind is moving back to florida!
x. Hate? nto sure
x. Love? A great many people and things.
x. Wish? To be truly happy.

now your turn guys......

My First Entry :-)

2003-03-29T17:26:25Z

Hello everybody well this is my FIRST yes FIRST journal entry for LiveJournal. Well i suppose i will just jump into explaining what has been going on lately in the exciting (hes lieing he means boring) life of me tim. Well the the other nite i made a commitment to start waking up every morning at 5:30 am to go running well that nite i moved the clock far away from my bed therefor i would have to get out of bed to shut off the alarm....well i wake up at 5:30 the next morning to find out its raining so i try to reach over and turn off the alarm but i cant reach so im trying my hardest to reach and then i fall out of bed and hit my head and my foot got stuck. so im laying there in this extremely uncomfortable position i finally got myself unstuck and went to bed, only to wake up 3o minutes later lol ....well im glad to say the next morning i woke up and went running and it felt great besides i was asleep while i was running.

An airline's passenger cabin was being served by an obviously gay flight
attendant, who seemed to put everyone into a good mood as he served them
food and drinks. As the plane prepared to descend, he came swishing down
the aisle and announced to the passengers,"Captain Marvin has asked me to announce that he'll be landing the big scary plane shortly, lovely people, so if you could just put up your trays that would be super."
On his trip back up the aisle, he noticed that a well-dressed rather exotic
looking woman hadn't moved a muscle. "Perhaps you didn't hear me over
those big brute engines. I asked you to raise your trazy-poo so the main man
can pitty-pat us on the ground." She calmly turned her head and said, "In my country, I am called a Princess. I take orders from no one." To which the flight attendant replied, without missing a beat, 'Well, sweet-cheeks, in my country, I'm called a Queen, so I outrank you. Tray up, bitch."

Well im pretty excited for this spring break im going down to a beach house the family owns (we just sold it the other night so in about a month it will no long be ours :( and a freind is coming with me it will be quite enjoyable i hope
well i will update more soon....lator gator